With all that is happening in our country at this moment in time, it gives me cause to reflect on my past. I was raised in a family that expressed their love for each other freely. As a child, I observed how other adults treated each other and how these adults treated my parents. I learned specific ways of being. I was taught to respect my elders, to turn the other cheek. It became difficult for me as I entered school because I became the punching bag of other students who didn't understand their anger. As a child, I didn't know that these children might be reacting to painful experiences they were unable to express. I grew up with the learned behaviors of my family. I would like to believe that I am the best of both my parents.
As an adult, I chose a life of service. I believed and still do, that we are one human family. We are here to learn from each other, to help one another heal, and to live a life of love and peace.
I quickly learned that each person's childhood would reflect on how they would live their life as an adult. I couldn't understand why there were so many angry adults walking around. I saw these angry adults continue to bully others. I felt like I was reliving my childhood. It brought out in me, my anger that needed to be resolved by some of my own childhood experiences. I didn't want to be like others walking around, holding onto my pain, spewing it around, hurting others. Why would I do this if we are all one human family in this together?
I realized holding onto my pain and pushing it down would make me unhappy. For me holding this pain in would make me judge myself and others. The pain would create unrealistic expectations within myself that I would then place on others. The worst, though, was that the pain would build a prison within me. I was thus holding my heart center hostage. With the love and guidance of friends and family, I was able to work this pain through. It was difficult because I had to face the hurt, fear, and anger that had been pushed down. Once I was able to work it through, My heart center was released and free again to love myself and others as one human family.
We are currently in a time of chaos and turmoil. Many people are expressing the pain that has been held deep within for years. We are one human family. Each of us needs to reflect on the parts of us that still need healing. Now is the time to reach out and offer forgiveness. It is the time to ask for forgiveness, so we can work through the pain and experience the freedom that awaits us.